One after another

I thought "Par Tor'ing" is a sweet process but it turned out the other way round. I used to think that this relationship is strong and understanding but no. I always wanted a good conversation but it always ended up flaming each other. What kind of relationship is this? Why is it hurting both sides so badly? How come C is so unreasonable lately? Does it mean missing someone so much allows Her to be unreasonable? I don't get it. Why? Why? Why?

I believe the Lord is preparing something but i don't know what. I really suffer in this and i don't know how to handle it. Confused and scared. I must plan what to say and whats not. Imagine how uneasy it is to face this all the time. In a relationship, it's always a two way communication and not single. But when it turns single, this means something is really wrong and it has to be corrected. When try to correct, it turned out to be that i am the wrong one, i am almost speechless and don't know how to face it anymore. I had try my very very best to persuade her and even apologised to her but she does not even move abit.

I can only hope that the Lord will make her realise what is happening and if she is not going to do something about it, it will jepordise both of us. Really.